depression...jus came home from dinner.went to sakura with father's side to eat.buffet.soo mani nice nice food.got takoyaki.unagi.oyster.clams.blah blah.lots of food.ate alot of cheesecake.3 diff kind of chzcake i think.

it's nice having the whole family sitting down havin dinner and talking.haha.hardly get a chance.perhaps 3 or 4 times a yr only.

hais..depression ever aft i saw tt movie yst night.it was so bloody and sadist.it's abt cops trying to nab this super baddie fat guy.but in the end 4 out of 5 policemen died.3 was being slashed evrywhere and the throat.one was pushed down from the building.

OMG!it was so damn blooody and gruesome.orgh..love tt guy who was kena pushed down.he's got the manly look,6 pac..omg=))jus my kind of dream guy!!orgh..so in luv with him=))

till then
he's my dream guy=))

heyos!
love work today!
forced myself to wake up at 8 today..
erm.but woke up at 8.01
haha.
went work..saw a few old workin frens
haha..during break drank only soup with tracy
in the end sir raymond gave us a pack of breakfast
OMg!!customer dun wan le
so we eat loh!
ahahaha.so feng fu
+extra thick bread with chz and ham
+egg
+sausage
aft worked shared a plate of black pep sea pas with tracy
+extra pasta
woah..it was soooO nice
ended our meal with a single scoop ice cream
tracy took double
haha.had alot of fun today
like...
-putting ice inside tracy's shirt.AHAHAHA
-hearing sir raymond say ghost story
-eating so much nice food!!=))
-getting ang pao frm swensens

best moments in swensens=))

ate steamboat for dinner..so full now
jus saw fireworks..frm msia
haha.nice..
family watching movie now..
yay!tmr no work.rest

happy new yr!!!home sweet home morning..father's side came to our hse firstthen...went fu hui bai bai..proceeded to mum's side for lunchwent to guanyin temple to praywent back to popo hse again for dinneraunt fly to indiamum made a extra BIG yushengate steamboat..din eat much todayhums.abit of flu alr.ayess..tmr still got workshall slp early.chow

nEW yR eVe
...spring cleaning...nthg much to clean actually
jus some dust to remove and things to arrange
slept at 3 plus ystwatched memoirs of a geisha
itsta nice movie
love the eye colour of zhang and chiyo
sians...feel like slping now
will be gg out to have reunion dinner with.
.eh papa side relatives
tmr will be a BIG RED DAY!
shucks..argh!!!hate it.it always happen on impt day
will be wearing white base skirt tmr sia
damn it..

heheh..got the online test from big bird...quite fun sia...

mine was...
brown
You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

haha...

till then..
CNy is coming
and i feel nthg...

im so bloated..worked OT today.12-11...wahaha.leg pain.went break with maam wan inghaha.2% of stress.aftall she's a manager.till 11..suddenly got earthquake!!the ice cream.wahahas!!! shared with wee ming and augustine3 of us practically almost ate up the whole earthquaketook home some baked rice.potatos and soup home.wha...today so shiok!!wahahs.heehee.simply love today!!!had a chance to work with ******..heeheee only diyanah and me knowalso with my look-alike sis (leonice)simple love today!!!=))

hmms.sudden depression now.feelin so lonely now..seems like we're drifting further and further..u say u're always bz..u say im thinkin too muchdon wanna lose a fren like u (:hais.the past has become a historysoon...dere'll be nthg.

till then i miss yew...
and u...

arh. . . stomachache. . .
went chinatown with yiying today aft workso hungry...
went to eat at tt food centre...looked ard for clothes and shoeslots of CNY wear...haha.both of us actually wanted to buy a pair of shoessame colour but diff pattern...
but in the end mama say the shop owner not honest..so neh buy.ayess..the shoe was really v nice and sweet.nthg much today..tired..

i think im still missin u

Sianx…practically working the whole week.did OT yst.almost had to do Ot today.but cas got cca orientation.so went back sch for np.sooO…loyal.haha.aft np went back to cp eat dinner with yiying an djoyce.went metro to look for new yr clothes.haha.saw this dress.so so lah..but the price wise…erm…ex abit.haha.went to try the dress…had 2 pretty ladies following me in the fitting room…-_-“aiyOs!!!yiying ah!!!so troublesome….3 person in a dressing rm abit wad alr…still tok so loud..”mux like this”..”cannot”…”stuff something inside!!”waliew ah…so pai seh when we came out of the fitting room….moral of the story…nv let yiying go into the fitting rm with u!

Till then…united we stand divided we fall.
miss those times we had tgt big bird….haiz…

grr....screwed screwed!!
o's result is like coming...

im very EXTREMLY Scared!!

scared of seeing my bad results...
more afraid of accepting the fact tt i've mugged for months and tt is the kind of result i got.
scared of dissapointing my parents
me myself and i
friends
teachers
evrybody.....
then i'll be faceless

evrybody will be cheering over their results....then...ARGH!!!
i'll be moaning abt where to go....

hais...then evryone will be saying...it's alrite.no use cryiing over spilled milk...
and blah blah blah...urghss

i don wan tt to happen!!!!

i'll practically die!!!
die over seeing and taking my results

i cant take this anymore

keeping me in suspense

wad for?!?!
when i know i'll do badly and my inner inner internal cells are telling me it won't happen!?
wad for thinking pessismistic!!
wad for thinking optimistic!!
omgosh!!!!!
im thinking of gg to temple and pray...omg....
urgh....o's result
is worst than taking the papers itself
seeing and hearing the principal toking abt the oevralls...huw many passes and failures(touchwood)
and seeing yr form tcher giving out saying CONGRATULATIONS!!!or DON BE TOO UPSET!!!
pls standby tissue boxes for me...
morever im like index no. 41?!!!
last one to recieve...the stress and pressure wld be like...omg
it;s not a gd feeling mann....


im dying...of results pressure

back from sec 1 orientation camp!=))

1st day
woke up late..oOpx...went to sch.the usual things...
bag check,speeches,area prep
quite a tension btwn snr instructors and instructor
saww...back to sch as SI'sheh.snr instructor not station inspector.
hahaha.the ice breaker was boring...
had ij trail aft lunch!!yesh!!!was with dan at lim bo seng there.
station master.hehs!brought my digi cam there.knew it'll be boring
but..it's really boring having to sit there for like 3 hours
plus plus
brrs...self entertained ourselves.haha.took alot of pictures!
pretty pics
then saw some ppl eating ice cream
so dan went up to ask them where did dey bot the ic
haha.yup.so i went to buy.ate ice cream and took pics
spent most of our time thinking wad poist to make and taking pics
waited and waited for campers to come...
(maybe our station was really ulu pandan eh)
lol.went back sch for dinner...then i forgotten wad we did...
went home.be back in sch tmr

2nd day
woke up late agian!but the late was still acceptable
prepared for ij trail again.it was raining...so our station chged to esplanade underpass
went there with dan
so boring....not much ppl except for a few homeless ppl slping there
and...2guys skateboarding
sat there for very long!!!!argh!!!butt pain.suddenly had this idea of borrowing tt 2 guys skateboard to play
haha.yea..borrowed one of dem's one.and sort of learn
it was horrible.haha.dan n i tried to skate but most of the time...almost fell down.
the feeling was scary.haha
ohh..and my skateboard almost hit a slping man's head!
waited and waited...sian...then a grp of srjc jc2 ppl came
they were also having orientation camp
looked at us as if we were also part of the homeless grp
haha.then finally campers came(it was rainin heavily)
did the activities..blah blah blah
heard some jc2 ppl saying :"pri sch!"wakao eh...
so i guess they are in sec sch eh
hahas..aft they left..more srjc ppl came...practically the whole cohort of them
so dan and i left too!
went citylink the 7-eleven there
bought gulp..mashed pot.burger
went back to the underpass there...ate...so we waited and waited...but no body came
then a grp of phoncho ppl came and dan saw
a figure tt look like yar hui
omg.she waved at her and said yar hui!
i too thought tt it was yar hui but it was some jc2 ppl
omg.was so maluated.
went back to our pillar..no face
went back to sch for lunchthen go back to ij trail again
but it was rainin damn heavily
so ij trail will onli be held at chijmes
was with dan and al-lene at gate of hope
almost typed gate of hip hop
haha.dan and i sneaked off to raffles city marketplace to buy food again
bought twisties and kinder bueno
haha.jus realised every session we go
we'll defintely buy someting.
back to sch...rainin...so campfire will be wet weather
saw lots of other SI...was very happy.
hugged and all
evryone was so happy to see one another
campfire...it was so boring!!!
the atmosphere was so dead!
it was only the SI and instructors tt were high
borin boring boring!!!
untill the last part!when the instructors danced and our SI item!
heh...went up to the "staged"sang caritas share the love...sang deep deep(awwss..love tt song)and the last part....
we all got into a solemn mood....
all SI's stand in a str8 row
our right hands were all "cup"over our hearts
and we sang the sch song....was so touched...
then cried for the next few minutes...
the atmosphere was so touching..it was really very heart suaning
the bondness we had tgt as a SI's...
the friendship we made throughout those camps
.....hais...i dunno huw to put it in words
u will have to only experience it yrself.
then u will understand this kinda feelin
aft campfire...SI's all went down canteen..i ate alot.
then we used mat's digi cam
took many many lame lame pics agian!
but it was very nice
haha.aft tt played some stupid games called "black magic","fuzzy wazzy","what's next"grr!!ok.guess i jus have to admit im stupid and have low EQ and IQ!!!!
took very very long to understand it.
the game was lame pls!
hhaah.bathe at 2 am plus...water was soso cold!
went to canteen to slp aftwards
gathered a few benches and tgt we made a "king size bed!!"
hahah.it was very cold throughout the whole night
had only the sch pullover
close to 6...went back to class room to slp.
till almost 10 then wake up!!feel so guilty
...bad SI's...went home aft eating breakfast and sleep...

hais...miss everyone
rreally regretted not gg fer 1st 3 months MI....
=((
regret regret regret....
nthg much at work 2dae...
except..a pair of lesbians
they were kissing like in public!
hello...
**disgusted
humph.dey haf simply thrown the women's society face!
oh ya.seems like infant day today
so mani children
hahas
brrss...weather's so cold nowadays
sumthings wrong with the weather ya.
haveta go offline...
dad will scold...

chow...

yox!dan's currently at my hse
or shld i say beside me
wel....yst...
went for np trng
sians...did pioneering till hand rope burn
pain pain
went cp with dan aftwards to popular and top up ez-link
met up with hwee and fang
was at 3rd flr of cp and i saw my cousin on the 1st flr...haha
den dan shouted "wei ming"!!!!omg-_-""""
cccccooooooaaaa!!!
went city hall cas someone jus had to colle tc her $$$
gosh and we saw xie lao shi(hot)
went ps to buy present for sand
bought a cake from secret recipe
a card from precious thots
a big mug from...forgotten...
haha
hungry so went to long johns to eat
COA!!!centre of attraction
we were toking abt b*****so loudly
and hwee was showing where was it
there was a grp of guys beside us
and they were like...we were like???
omg.so mulauted
went basement...
hwee bought rou gan from mei zhen xiang?!
and 4 of us were like sua gu sampling the rou gan
went to buy gelato..dan jus had to say the choc look like shit!
haha.the salesperson jus =) and the other diao her i think
for me....bot the anderson's ice cream...cool
the uncle was very friendly...chatted with us abt our comments on the ice cream

it was rainin...walked to the 147 bus stop
ran aft the bus...4 ij gals in uni?
in the bus...COA agian...went up and found out there was no sit
were seperated in the end
knock my head against the air con
stupid bus
*ouch pain pain
created quite a commotion up stairs
didi'nt know where to stop
so dan brought us down
fine...COA again
some familar guy boarded the bus
saw him and asked hwee who is he
then dan was like ah-meng!!
jia jie
shouted across frm the back to the front...
the whole bus ppl was practically like...nvm
alighted the bus...and dan jus have to shout her hp no. to jia jie inside the bus!
wonder wad the bus ppl thinkin?
haha stopped at serangoon
time was like 10 plus le
went 7-eleven to buy lighter for one pathetiq candle(sand's cake)
COA again.haha.wads 4 ij gals in sch uni doing in 7-11 buyin a $0.80 lighter in the middle of the night!haha.
wanted to walked to sand hse.but time was earlier..so went to one near by kopitiam!
haha.drank milo.COA again.haha.can u imagine 4 ij gals in kopitiam at 11 plus?!!?!
crazy...took mani photos there with my digi cam.
took a bus to sand's hse...
waited for sand to come...haha.
the bus-stop practically became our party place
celebrated for sand...took mani pics at the bus stop
left at 12plus am...haha.thankfully din miss the bus....43
it was rainin.and the bus was suppose to turn into the intchange
but...haha.asked the bus driver do us a favour drive us to the next bus stop.so...
haha
he was kind lah.thx!=))

dan stayed overnight at my hse..
cook mee in like 2am plus...
shared one bed...**heh heh
but i went to sleep on the floor halfway
went back to the bed again in the morning...
haha

work was hell today...but ate alot aft work..
cookies n cream ice cream...salmon..fries...soup...
blah blahblah

np rawks!

finally get to use comp!!!
ok...lotsa thing to say....shall summarised it
lets start with today
-ate the fortune meal?!
-i burned my hand by (tomato clam chowder) soup.darn!
-today work was stress
-cousin and da yi zhang came=))
-WORK WAS LIKE WAR!!!
-finally peace....
-thank god no runaway bill
-went home...saw someone...jerk
-spent some fun time msging each other.thks dan!!!=))


yst....
-was the setter
-burned by the stupid bake rice
-overall fun!=))
-ate mango ice cream
-thank god no runaway bill

alritess.yay im so excited.tmr's plan...
-go np trng
-secret
-secret
-secret
-not for u to know!

hahahss...anw dan's coming my hse to saty tmr.hoope the stayover will be funn!!!

till then
see ya jerk.im not upset at all

30 dec
aft work rushed to johor alone.haah was quite fun actually.reached woodland int finding for the bus to johor.lol.finally saw it.then there was a aunty beside me.haha.asked me whether does this bus goes to msia.obviously i said yes.haha.then we chatted.found out tt she's a s'porean and is gg home to her aunt's hse.k.she's weird.told me tt one s'porean business man was killed there.and so on.haha.but she was quite nice.asked me to becareful.becareful of robbers.
at night..ate seafood.wha.nice.it was beside another small restuarant called sampan cuisine.there was live singing.cool...sang chinese song..all nice nice one.hahs.went back to hotel.it was like hdb flats.except tt it was round and enclosed.and on top was alot alot alot of balloons.beautiful

31dec
shopped.first dad was ready to park his car.then suddenly some ppl jus went into the parking lot...horn himed.he told us there's still alot of parking lot!!wakao eh!!!...then our trolley was taken by some ppl and da things inside was put into a basket...WTH!!back to s'p...dad drove me to dan's hse.HEHS!!we're gonna countdown!!!
-we saw fireworks
-watch hollow man
-watch jian dan ren wu
-sang new yr songs
-sreamed out of the window 2 times
-dan lost her one slipper in the van
-it most prob drop out
-she had to hop home
-hahahahahs
-i flew off in the van and slide.funni ya
-went online till 5am plus
-made sandy say i love zeng zy
-slept at 5.30 am

dan's family was nice.very...erm...ya nice.dunno how to say.haha.went home sleep till 4.then faster chg for work...boring life mann


till then...
i miss sch life